Thursday, October 22, 2009

my poem (hope you like)

blood is dripping
down my arm.
a tear falls
from my cheek.
another
and
another.
drip,
drop.
drip,
drop.
the faucet is leaking.
my arm is
burning
and itching.
my tears
keep falling,
faster
and
faster.
drip,
drop.
drip,
drop.
i turn up
the volume
so nobody
can hear
the screaming.
laying there
tears falling,
wrists bleeding,
and the screaming.
drip,

drop.
drip,
drop.
nobody's coming.
im still
screaming,
crying,
burning,
itching,
bleeding.
drip,

drop.
drip,
drop.
knock,
knock,
knock.
somebodys here.
i dont care.
i keep
screaming.
i blast
the music
louder.
drip,

drop.
drip,
drop.
they bust in.
its HIM.
i scream until
i can scream
no more.
he takes the razor
all in blood,
and throws it
on the floor.
i push him
toward the door,
but he says,
"i wont leave
anymore."
drip,

drop.
drip,
drop.
i yell
and
scream.
blood still
dripping
down my arm.
"baby,
i mean
no harm."
tears turn
into sobs.
i whisper
in his ear,
"i love you
but get out."
drip,

drop.
drip,
drop.
but he
doesnt leave,
just
sits there.
i look
at him
in disgust.
i love him
but
hate him
too.
drip,

drop.
drip,
drop.

Monday, October 5, 2009

untitled (think of possible title) ill post more in comments.

Chapter one

  “Brit! Hurry up!” I called. She yells back, “I’m coming, Alex! Do you have my keys?” She’s on the porch, looking through her purse. I yell to her, “Yeah! Come on!”
  Brit is my girl. Her short choppy hair has grown out to her chin. It flies behind her as she runs down the porch steps. She runs right into my arms. We hug and she whispers, “I love you Alex.” And I whisper back, “I love you, too, Brit.”
   We walk to the 1979 mustang she has. She says, “Chick, start it up.” (Before youthink anything else, I AM a chick.)
  

Thursday, September 24, 2009

...?...

do you watch vampire diaries?
its awesome!
anyone have facebook?
add me!!
im wearing shutters rite now so i cant see very good but
im okay for now!!!

random notes

(((me and josh m. today)))
hi buddy!!
hi. whats up?
nothin, just bein bored How bout you?
same here. dude this is always boring.
its stubid why would we ever do this?
idk...but its retarded.
Yuppiez... so how have you been?
depressed... how about you?
same... but why?? =)
my grandma and my x-bf
ahhh   I is sowwy
LOL its okay

(((me and jess)))
love the letter
OMFG!
what?
idk. how should i no?
IDK
idk either!!!
im going to be lonely at recess.
POOR YOU!!
wait... you can hang out with taylor!
oh thanks
yep! ummm
.......
IM BORED!
Same Here

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

...............

These questions will get rather deep and personal, can you take it?


i sure can(:



Have any of your exes said they missed you?

yes....



What would you do if you found out one of your friends likes your crush?

i dont know



Will the last person you kissed be the next person you kiss?

maybe



Have you ever kissed an ex after you two have broken up?

yeah...


What is your current relationship status?

single and complicated



Would you ever consider living with anyone on your top friends on myspace?

yepp...



Ever kept arguing even after you realized you were wrong?

ummm... idk.. i think so...



If a girl kisses another girl are they a dirty hoe?

im not a dirty hoe.



Do you still talk to the person you last kissed?

sometimes.



Why do you hate the person you hate the most?

because i live with him



When you say you don't care do you mean it?

sometimes



When meeting someone new, are you afraid they won't like you?

doesnt matter to me..



Has anyone ever told you they love you and meant it?

yeah, i hope so.



Have you ever liked someone older than you?

yea....



Is heart break really as bad as people make out?

yeah....



Do you believe in love at first sight?

no....



Do you regret anything that you’ve done in your past?

not yet..


Do you think you can love someone without trusting them?

no



Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?

hell no



Are you generally a happy person?

yeah



Do you hate it when people smoke around you?

no... are you crazy?



What is more important, family or friends?

friends



Would you rather choose truth or dare while playing "truth or dare"?

truth



Read me the last message from your inbox on myspace?

I'm sooooo booooored! Lolz. I know one lesbian girl lolz. But oi doubt if you'll like her



Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?

yeah. XD



Have you kissed anybody in the last 5 days?

No...



How's your heart lately?

shattered into pieces



Have you ever sent a text to the wrong person?

yeah...



Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?

alone


Will this friday be a good one?

it matters, but probly not



When was the last time you were told you were cute?

umm..... two weeks ago?



Describe your life in one word?

damnshitfuck.



Do you think age matters in relationships?

No... age is just a number.



When was the last time you got a haircut?

may



Have you ever lived with a girlfriend/ boyfriend?

Nope



Who did you last eat chineae food with?

my parents



Do you know anyone that smokes weed?

Yeah



How has the week been?

suckish and depressing.



Are you stubborn?

yep



Did anything "cute" happen in the last week?

umm idk



Do you have a reason to smile right now?

no, but i really gotta pee.



Is there anybody you wish you could spend time with right now?

yea



Have you ever broken someone's heart?

yea



What's something you really regret saying to someone?

"i like you more than a friend and im sorry that i have to tell you with an email"



Is there something really bad that you've done, that only YOU know about?

Nope



Have you ever broken a really important promise?

idk



Have you ever copied someone else's homework?

yea, but mostly people copy off me.



How often do you cry?

daily



Ever smoked?

Yeah



Got a lap dance?

um......



Do you want a boyfriend/ girlfriend?

hell yeah.


Could you go a whole year without cursing?

fuck no



Have you cuddled with someone you weren't dating?

Yeah

Saturday, September 19, 2009

cassie pulled the trigger

what the fuck is wrong with people? why wont they just say what the think to peoples faces instead of behind their backs?
anyway i want you to click on the post below this one called story and click on it.. its my first draft and the comments are the rest and ill post more later.
please read it.
it gets more intersesting as the story goes...


ive already written it and im not even finished with it yet..
so you'll have to wait
until monday....
********************************************************************************
until then
enjoy!

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

story...

okay this is my first draft so dont judge:

i love my boyfriend with al me heart. but he doesnt feel the same way apparently. we "did it' on our 1 year anniversary. i thought i had taken my pill and he had used a condom, but it broke. after two months, he took me to a very nice dinner. after dinner i told him that i may be pregnant. he said, "im sorry LJ but im not ready, but i guess ill have to be. i smiled and kissed him gently.



ill post more later..

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Y = Yes, N = No, M = Maybe

Would you? Will you?
[_] give me your number? (_ _ _) _ _ _- _ _ _ _
[_] give me your screenname? ______________
[_] kiss me?
[_] let me kiss you?
[_] watch a movie with me?
[_] go to dinner with me?
[_] let me drive you somewhere?
[_] take a shower with me?
[_] buy me a drink?
[_] take me home for the night?
[_] let me sleep in your bed?
[_] Sing car karaoke w/ me?
[_] re-post this for me to answer your questions?
[_] Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?
[_] let me make you breakfast?
[_] help me with homework?
[_] tickle me?
[_] let me tickle you?
[_] stick up for me if i was being put down?
[_] instant message me?
[_] greet me in public?
[_] hang out with me?
[_] bring me around your friends?
D0 Y0U...
[_] think im hott?
[_] think im cute?
[_] want to hook up with me?
[_] want to be my bf/gf?
AM I...
[_] smart?
[_] funny?
[_] cool?
[_] loveable?
[_] adorable
[_] great to be with?
[_] attractive?
[_] mean?
HAVE Y0U EVER...
[_] thought about hooking up with me
[_] found yourself wanting a kiss from me?
[_] wished I were there?
[_] had a crush on me?
[_] wanted my number?
[_] had a dream about me?
ARE Y0U...
[_] happy you know me?
[_] thinking about me?
[_] interested in dating me?

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

falling away

I am bored with love
and it's passionless limbs
that drape over my bed
in a lethargic state of impotence
while wearing the same red heart
my soul picked up hitchhiking
off highway serendipity
Now here we are
alone in togetherness
trying to build dreams
with two by fours and glue,
but even a home
won't tie us together
when our hearts live alone
Poetic vows cliched
into nothingness
like all words do, eventually
and we allowed
our bodies to become
another pair of hollow shadows
that make love to a wall
instead of each other
and we wonder why
the roses are dying

Monday, August 17, 2009

lgbt rights

Lesbian, gay, bisexual, and transgender (LGBT) persons in the United States may face legal challenges not experienced by non-LGBT citizens. Six states (Massachusetts, Connecticut, Iowa, Vermont, Maine, New Hampshire) have legalized same-sex marriage.
Sexual acts between persons of the same sex have been legal nationwide in the US since 2003, pursuant to the US Supreme Court ruling in Lawrence v Texas. Openly lesbian and gay members of the US military are subject to the US's "Don't ask, don't tell" policy, but U.S. President Barack Obama indicated during the 2008 presidential campaign his desire to end this policy, though his administration asked the Supreme Court to not hear a case challenging the policy as unconstitutional.
The most visible LGBT-specific political issue in the United States in the 2000s is government recognition of same-sex relationships. Six states currently offer marriage to same-sex couples.[1] California performed same-sex marriages in 2008, but in November of that year, voters passed Proposition 8, banning same-sex marriage in the state through an amendment to the state constitution. Opponents of the ban are seeking to overturn Proposition 8 in court. Additionally, some states offer civil unions or other types of recognition which offer some of the legal benefits and protections of marriage. 20 states outlaw discrimination based on sexual orientation, and 13 states outlaw discrimination based on gender identity or expression.
Adoption policies in regards to gay and lesbian parents vary greatly from state to state. Some allow adoption by same-sex couples, while others ban all "unmarried couples" from adoption. Mississippi bans adoptions by "two people of the same sex" regardless of the nature of the relationship between them. Florida was the only state in the US that prohibits even single lesbian or gay persons from adopting, but it was then repealed.[2]

marilyn manson (form godhatesgoths.com)

Madman Marilyn Manson is just as guilty of the Columbine High School Massacre as the two maniacs who pulled the triggers. Eric Harris, and Dylan Klebold, were both devotees of Marilyn Manson, and ran down the halls screaming "Marilyn Manson rules!" while they were shooting their classmates. It is clear that his sick music incited the killers to violence. We must work to BAN Manson's music, as it advocates rape, violence, hate for God, murder, and suicide.

Marilyn Manson acts like a freak that is straight out of the pits of hell! He is a so-called rock singer, but that is a sick joke, as the loser cannot even carry a tune. He is actually a recruiter for the Church of Satan, in which he holds the title of "reverend". He was given this title by Anton LaVey, founder of the First Church of Satan and author of "The Satanic Bible". Manson began worshipping LaVey from the time he was a teenager.

There is a false story being circulated around the internet about how he was rejected by a youth group at a church Christian school while he was a teenager. It says that since he looked and dressed differently than the other teenagers there, they wanted nothing to do with him, so he turned to Satanism. BULLSHIT! This story is a LIE, as it leaves out a lot of important details. The fact of the matter was that Brian Warner used to show up at church dressed in black garb and wearing Satanic t-shirts. He used to try to intimidate the other teenagers by telling them things like "Satan Rules" etc., etc. He would give them the Satanic sign and tell them that the Devil was God. He also admitted to being a homosexual as well as a child-molester, and propositioned several teenagers at the church to try to entice them into having sex with him. This freak obviously had no intention of starting a relationship with Jesus like the other teenagers there, he was obviously only there to cause trouble, and wanted to intimidate Christians. I mean, first you should reach out to someone like that, but when they openly reject you and come into the House of God to start trouble, that shows disrespect to not only God, but to the teenagers that are there trying to get their lives right . They have to listen to all that satanic trash in the world, so God forbid that they have to come into the church and hear it there.

When Manson started touring, he began burning Holy Bibles in his concerts, and giving "alter calls" for Satan, by encouraging kids to reject Jesus Christ, and accept Satan into their hearts and minds, as well as accepting Manson as the Antichrist. He tells them to chant in unison, Fuck the Holy Spirit and Fuck Jesus Christ. Manson has committed blasphemy of the Holy Spirit, which is the only sin that is UNFORGIVABLE, and gets his fans to do it too so that they end up in Hell with him. This is sick, by his actions he is destroying lives. Marilyn Manson has crossed the line.

Not only that, but Manson sells WWJD bracelets at his concerts, saying that it does not stand for "What Would Jesus Do", but instead they stand for "WE WANT JESUS DEAD". He has allegedly raped a young girl on the stage, and has sodomized one of his band members in front of thousands of children. Manson has taken the cross of Jesus and defecated on it while on stage. Manson has urinated on pictures of Jesus, during his concerts. Manson has encouraged the teenagers in the audience to commit acts of sodomy, and lesbianism. He took a little puppy dog that was only 6 weeks old, and tossed it into the audience, encouraging kids to rip it to pieces and then smear the blood all over one another, which they gladly did. He said he dreams of the day that he can take a little baby and do the same thing to the baby. Many people have said that Marilyn Manson has also thrown bags of drugs into the crowd. He has asked audiences at his concerts if they have ever eaten babies. He sells t-shirts encouraging children to KILL GOD, KILL THEIR PARENTS, and then KILL THEMSELVES. Manson's band members drink his urine and he pees on the crowd at his concerts. Many a teenager has committed suicide after going home from his demonic concerts. At early shows Marilyn Manson would have girls dancing naked in cages while men gathered around them and spit on them. Manson has been arrested a few times and has been banned from 13 states in the USA for behavior.

Singer Courtney Love, pulled out of her on the road tour with Manson, in March of 1999, stating that she would never tour with him again as he was telling children to commit suicide. This web site would never endorse Courtney Love or her music because she is a sick loser drug addict whore, but in this case we say, "Good On Ya, Courtney!"

Nutbag Manson tells kids that Hell is a great place and they need not fear Hell. He says it is one great big party for eternity with all of the drugs and sex you can ever want. He tells them to escape the pressures of this world by committing suicide. I notice that Manson advocates suicide and tells young people to do it, but he fails to lead by example! If Hell is so great and suicide is the solution to life's problems as Manson says, then why doesn't he set the example? I will even loan him my gun, and load it for him. Let’s see if he will just practice what he preaches!

An unconfirmed rumor we have is that Marilyn Manson supposedly had his bottom two ribs removed, so that he can perform oral-sex on himself. He bragged about this in interviews. Another unconfirmed rumor is that Manson did a spell during one of his concerts, and 3 members of his audience caught fire and died. Marilyn Manson has also told many that he had gotten breast-implants, but that he later had them removed. He had posed for a photo showing himself with breast, which is on the cover of one of his CDs. This just shows his reprobate mind.

Just last year we received a letter from a 12 year old boy who had been at one of Manson's concerts. In it he said he had been invited backstage by one of Manson's band members. When he got there he was stripped naked, and Mr Manson himself put a handful of snakes down the boys shorts, and told his band members to take it in turns to kick the boy in his testicles. This is sick!

Twiggy Rameriez , one of Manson's band members was arrested for molesting a little boy.

Parents, this is what YOUR children are listening to when they have this freaks cd's in their possession. I was recently at a Christian school and I asked for a show of hands of students who listened to Manson's music or had his cd's in their possession and about 75% of their hands went up.

Well I asked those kids to " Take those cd's, lay them out on the floor, take a hammer, and whack those cd's until they are in little bitty tiny pieces, and then mail those pieces straight to Manson telling him you want nothing more to do with him or his music."

It is against God's Holy Word to listen to Marilyn Manson, as God's Word says in Philippians 4:8, "Whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable- if anything is excellent or praiseworthy,-think about such things."

Parent's , if your teenager will not do this on their own, then YOU take the proper leadership role in your home and do it for them! You have every right to do this according to God's Word in Joshua 24:15 "AS FOR ME AND MY HOUSE WE WILL SERVE THE LORD!"

Parents, Manson has not only told the teenagers to commit suicide, but he has encouraged them to take knives and hack their parents to death while they are sleeping, or to take a gun and murder their parents , or kill their parents in anyway that they can.
Marilyn Manson has said he is the 'Anti-Christ' on numerous occasions, and has said in an interview "Hopefully, I’ll be remembered as the person who brought an end to Christianity." (Spin, August '96). Although we do not know for a fact, many of our Church believe this to be true. If he is indeed the Antichrist, he will have a birthmark on his body resembling the numbers 6-6-6, the birthmark of the Devil. If anyone knows this to be the case will they please get in touch with our Church, and furnish us with proof.

WE MUST NOT SIT BACK AND ALLOW THIS DEMONIC BEHAVIOR FROM THE PITS OF HELL TO COME INTO OUR COMMUNITIES ANY LONGER!

I SAY THAT WE MUST DO EVERYTHING WE CAN TO KEEP MARILYN MANSON OUT OF OUR CITIES WHEN HE TRIES TO COME TO OUR TOWNS, BECAUSE THIS IS FOR THE PROTECTION OF OUR CHILDREN!!

this fucker doesnt even know what the fuck hes talking about. not all people who listen to marilyn manson (i.e. me and my friends) are satanists. i go to church and praise god. this reverand doesnt know what hes talking about.

god hates women (godhatesgoths.com)

Before any of you get offended, let me just state that God does NOT hate ALL women - just the vast majority. I estimate that on average 99.999% of ALL women born today are heading straight to Hell. The truth is that so many women are turning from God, and ignoring important Bible teachings about how they should act, how they should dress, how they should know their places.

The evils of Feminism, Woman's Liberation, Woman’s Rights and similar Nazi Organizations have filled so many of their silly little heads with pipe-dreams and nonsense, that many women foolishly believe their dreams are actually important. When women should be at home looking after the kids, many are out earning a living they have no rights to pursue, while their children suffer and their husbands are left unattended to. And even worse, Feminist lies and deceptions are one of the main reasons for the high divorce rates we are seeing today.

I recently received a letter from some dumb brainwashed woman who had left her husband and taken his children away from him, because of these sick feminist lies.

In truth, there is absolutely NO reason to EVER divorce your Husband. It is sinful pride that causes ALL divorces. Divorce is a wicked sin. America is a feminist nation, and women are twice as likely to file for divorce than men. Look at World Divorce Rates and see how the evils of feminism have destroyed America's families. Sadly, all we see in society today is talk about domestic violence; but NEVER do we hear anything about statistics on wives who refuse to obey their husbands. It is disgusting. It is just as evil and sinful for a wife to frustrate her husband through insubordination and disobedience as it is for a man to commit domestic violence. Wives who rebel against their husbands by not being obedient deserve all they get.

I realize of course that this may be an ancient mentality to feminists today; but it is 100% Biblical doctrine. A wife is expected by God to OBEY her husband. Feminists are eagerly willing to crucify abusive husbands; BUT they won't even address the issue of wives who disobey, mistreat, and frustrate their husbands. It takes two to tango. 90% of all divorces are needlessly caused by a sinfully proud wife who gossips, nags, bitches and causes grief for her husband, and he gets mad. A wife who refuses to be submissive causes the marriage to become a two-headed monster. Someone's got to be in charge, and God COMMANDS that someone is the man. The wife is commanded by God to submit to her husband. In fact, Ephesians 5:22 commands a wife to obey her husband as unto Jesus Christ, "Wives, submit yourselves unto your own husbands, as unto the Lord." How many wives today obey this Biblical command? It would be like looking for a needle in a haystack to find such a woman today in America. No wonder Solomon said in Ecclesiastes 7:28, "One man among a thousand have I found; but a woman among all those have I not found." Solomon couldn't find one woman, out of all his wives and the women he had known, whom he could trust with all his heart.

There were many feminists in Solomon's time, just as there are today. Listen to what Solomon had to say about the rebellious feminists of his own time ... "And I find more bitter than death the woman, whose heart is snares and nets, and her hands as bands: whoso pleaseth God shall escape from her; but the sinner shall be taken by her." What a contrast from the virtuous wife of Proverb 31:28 ... "Her children arise up, and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praiseth her." Which type of woman are you? What does your husband (or EX-husband) have to say about you? God knows, and He does care, and you will have to give account for your gossip - mongering, laziness, carelessness, lies, deceitfulness, maliciousness. You will give full account to God for all your words and actions. Matthew 12:36 warns, "But I say unto you, That every idle word that men shall speak, they shall give account thereof in the day of judgment."

Feminists make-up bullshit words such as 'sexist' and 'bigot' to stop you learning the TRUTH! Remember woman was made FOR man, not the other way around. These feminists would do well to remember that. I really do not understand these feminists at all. If they hate men so much, then why do they dress like them? The Bible teaches us that women who dress in men's clothing will burn in Hellfire. And I for one cannot wait for ALL these heathen Feminists to burn. Their blood is on their own heads. Though in truth, we do not even know if ANY women go to Heaven. In fact we do not even know if women have souls to save. While the Bible teaches God gave MAN an immortal soul, and made woman FOR him, NOWHERE in the Bible does it talk about God giving dogs, cats OR WOMEN a soul! Also, while the Bible teaches that come Judgement Day MAN will be reunited with his maker, NOWHERE in the Bible does it say that women go to Heaven! Which, given the fact that women have no souls to save, makes perfect sense. The best woman can hope for is to live a pure sinless life, and pray to God every day that he grants them a soul when they die, so that they can get to Heaven. That is ALL they can hope for.

this guy is a total dip shit.

Saturday, August 1, 2009

attraction spell

materials:
  1. a mirror of any kind (any other than compact)
  2. 2 candles of any color- pink is a godd choice (friendship & romance)
  3. yourself
  • In a place that is comfortable for sitting a while, and fire safe, place the mirror with a candle on each side. Light the candles...turn down, or off, any artificial light. Now, sit down in front of the mirror, gaze at your reflection. Sit comfortably, and relaxed.
  • Notice all your good qualities...focus on them...then say aloud how wonderful this feature (eyes, for ex.) are..notice their shape, and color, speak of them aloud...do this with all your best features..smile at yourself :) Tell yourself, how wonderful you are...state all the positive aspects of your personality, (your humor, your willingness to help others, etc) name all the beautiful traits, that make you special...speak of them aloud, and with confidence...(It may not be as easy as it sounds!) Now comes the really hard part....hopefully, with practice, and by doing the above things, this will be easier to do!
  • ~~~Say these words~~ (or whatever suits YOU!) :)

-I am beautiful (or handsome) on the outside

I am wonderful within

I am special unto myself,

So let the love come in!

Negative thoughts,

they vanish

I now toss them out

Negative feelings,

be banished,

To let my love shine out!

Repeat this, at least 5 times per sitting.

And do at least, once a day--you may reuse the candles, but PLEASE DO NOT blow them out! (It is an insult, to the air to fire elements)

Use a snuffer, or..wet your fingers, and pinch them out.

As you get more used to doing this spell, you may repeat these words, or any words that YOU chose (spells are great, when made personal...maybe, in time, and with practice, you will want to change them, or maybe you'll want to do that right away..or, not at all..whatever YOU prefer) :) Also--to make an attraction charm, to wear, simply, find a chain, with a pendant that suits you, and drape over the mirror while doing your spell...or wear it, so it is in sight, as you do your spell. The charm gains strength, as you continue to work the spell.This spell works! In time---you will see a noticable difference, in the number of people who approach you.

Thursday, July 30, 2009

forget him

forget his name
forget his face
forget his kiss
his warm embrace
forget the love love that you once knew
remember he was someone new
forget him when they played your song
remember when you cried all night long
forget how close you once where
remember he has chosen her
forget the way you memorized his walk
forget the way he used to talk
forget the things he used to say
remember he has gone a way
forget his laugh forget his grin
froget the dimples on his chin
forget the way he held you tight
remember he with her tonight
forget the time that went do fast
forget the love that move, it past
forget that he said he'd leave you never
remember he's gone forever

poem

I'm sitting here in the dark,
Paper heart
Plastic smile
And half a thought about you and me.
I'm standing here in the rain,
Mangled clothes
Muddy shoes
And a strangled cry of who I used to be.
I'm laying here in the dirt,
Shattered dream
Smear of blood
And a feeling of loss I can't take anymore.
I'm here for you,
Here in life
Here in death
A mere shadow of who I used to be.

Monday, July 27, 2009

i dont know what to do anymore

he never wants to talk to me
i think hes doing the same thing to me
as he did to jessica.
thats pretty fucked up.
if i say anymore im going
to cry.
wait.
im already doing that.
this sucks ass.
*gets off computer to go sit in a corner
and cry*
buhbye

Saturday, July 18, 2009

randomness

`people of the blogging world ,

-i went to the park!
im possibly going again today!
im IN LOVE with the primary skewl park
[even tho its the playground, its still pure awesomeness]
-i think
i should go
to the mall.
or spend time with my little brother..
that is how BORED i am!
-let's all gather
for no reason
and play like little kids again.
-im not that old tho
im only
13.
*rockin down the escalator
moshin in the elevator*
im really bored..
add my yahoo:
and IM me please?

umm

"a killer stabs u in the front.
a friend stabs u in the back.
a boyfriend stabs u in the heart.
but best friends just poke each other with straws."
(=^_^=) kitty cat
-xxBrokenxxHeartedxx

Friday, July 17, 2009

rules on how to get a girl

  1. Be confident, but not cocky
  2. Don't be a pussy; Make the first move.
  3. Keep the conversation interesting
  4. Every girl deserves to be respected.
  5. Don't move forward too fast. Take things slow
  6. Only talking about your bad points is not going to get you a girl. Nobody wants to talk to someone who's wallowing in self-pity.
  7. At least look somewhat attractive

no means NO asshole

Guy:"Lets have sex right now."
Girl: "Can we do what?"
Guy: "You know, can I be your first, finally?"
Girl: "Um.....no."
Guy: "Why?"
Girl: "Because, 1. you have a girlfriend, who happens to be my friend......."
Guy: "So, if you don't tell, I won't tell."
Girl: "Besides that, I'm waiting for someone special. Someone that I want to be with for the rest of my life to be my first."
Guy: "I'm not special to you?"
Girl: "You're my friend. That's all."
Guy: looks forward and keeps driving.

5 minutes pass.......
Guy: starts to run his hand up the girl's thigh.
Girl: moves his hand, "Don't touch me.".
Guy: tries to kiss her.
Girl: screams, "Would you stop."
Guy: continues trying.
Girl: moves to the back seat
Guy: parks on an abandoned street and gets in the backseat with the girl. Starts to kiss her.
Girl: pushes him off and scoots over, "Please, don't do this."
Guy: "Don't do what, I know you want it, I can see it in your eyes." Moves over to her and starts to unbutton her pants.
Girl: pushes him harder and says, "No, don't."
Guy: getting aggravated, punches her and tells her to stop "playing hard to get".
Girl: crying, continues to fight.
Guy: punches her harder, pulls her pants off, and holds her down.
Girl: screams as he penetrates her, "NO, please don't do this to me!"
Guy: puts his hand over her mouth.
An hour passes.........
Guy: pulls back and wipes himself off.
Girl: sits on the corner of the seat, crying.
Guy: looks at her and says, "You better not tell anybody about this. If you're really my friend, you won't tell anybody about this. You know I love you." He reaches out his hand to touch her cheek.
Girl: pulls back, "Just take me home, now."
Guy: says, "Alright." Gets in the front seat and drives her home.
2 months later.........
Girl: "Doctor, what's wrong with me. I haven't had my time of the month in 2 months."
Doctor: looks at her, "You haven't been having your "time" for a reason."
Girl: looks at him and says, "Why?" dreading the answer that she was sure to receive.
Doctor: "You are pregnant."
Girl: faints.
The story gets out that she is pregnant, and people start looking to the Guy.
He claims that it isn't his because she was sleeping with every guy in the school(which was a lie). He goes to her and tells her, "I'm telling you, if you lie to people and say that I raped you, I'll kill you."
The Girl is completely devastated.
First, he took her virginity and got her pregnant....
then he lied about it.
So completely depressed......
the girl commits suicide by drug overdose.......
Girls, if this story touched you, repost it as "No means no asshole"
Guys, if this story pisses you off, repost it as" I'll kill any fucker who does this to my girl or any girl"
the way I see it if you open and
read this and DON"T REPOST this you must be for rape

wtf?

okay.
i saw rachel last nite at the movies!
i was so happy!
[btw she was my first kiss]
ty was going to go to the movies but we left
and rite when we left he got money.

Thursday, July 16, 2009

random

-Q: How do you get an emo kid out of a tree?
A: Cut the rope.
-Q: How do you kill an emo?
A: You put five of them in a room, then one of them wont have a corner to cry in.
- Q: How does an emo kid paint his ceiling black?
A: He dyes his hair and starts jumping up and down on the bed.
-Q: How many emo kids does it take to replace a broken light bulb?
A: One to replace it, and thousands of others to write songs about how the broken pieces reflect their shattered lives.

...?...?...?...?...?...

love.
makes me crazy.
it seems like they're all you have
and they become a part of you
and then when you least expect it,
they leave you like your
nothing..

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

for people who dont know-

[ i really like tyler
and i told him
and
he freaked out
but
we're stiil friends.
but
i dont think
i should post this,
but
im going to anyways.]

///_^

u like the emo person?
on the title?
i do
well
tyler has been talking about me
to jessica.
i know u dont know ANY
of the people im talking about
but just keep reading..
for the past month
jessica said that ty
has been talking about me
to her.
i think he secretly likes me
but he just doesnt know it yet
i hope he does cuz i really want to go out with him..

Monday, July 13, 2009

omg!

as fast as lightning,
i never even knew it hit me,
until after
-xxBrokenxxHeartedxx
i didnt know it was coming.
it came like it was nothing.
he asked me like it was nothing.
i couldn't believe my ear
[because we were on the fone!]
but he didnt notice it either.
i really didnt notice it
until
i told jess
that he would take me
to
New Moon.
she said i have a date
with tyler!
you can try and kill me,
but you will never succeed.
why?
because,
i am already dead.
if you kill me
while im dead,
all i would be
is my soul.
-xxBrokenxxHeartedxx

Thursday, July 9, 2009

^-^

my tears feel like
blood
running down my
cheeks.

10 things i hate about you

It's not the way you make me Laugh
or the way I Stumble when you are near
Your Voice always makes me smile.
And even your Heartbeat can Excite me once in a while.
It's not the way you Twist your Hair in vain.
or even the way you Stutter when you say my name.
It's not even the way you say things that Bite me.
It's mostly just the way you Talk with me...
Every day,...
In every way,...
In all that you say.

Monday, July 6, 2009

...?...

on the fourth of july
i went to sidney's
grandma's house
in henryetta
we had a
BBQ.
they dropped me off at the house,
i went skateboarding
(and fell many time)
please talk to me
im very bored..
please talk to me
and
if you do
tell me
you
read my blog...

Friday, June 19, 2009

untitled

Beating hearts,
running apart,
lost in space,
lost in love,
young love,
young mistakes,
feeling to helpless,
feeling alone,
never to love another one like them,
wishing,
hoping,
wanting,
to feel to sensation of their warm breath
on the nape of your neck,
to yearn for the hot touch they provide,
feeling alone
wanting it all
wondering why the person you loved walked out on you
in the time of need,
because beating hearts,
running apart,
lost in space,
lost in love,
young love is making too many...
mistakes

im addicted to you

You're like a drug,
and I'm addicted.
In the past,
my heart became,
conflicted.
You ARE the key to my heart,
for two long weeks,
Slowly but painfully,
I fell apart.
You are the brightest star in the sky,
you gave me,
that twinkle in my eye.
When I thought you lied,
I just cried and cried.
Wishing you were here...
To stand with me,
to stand by my side.

slit wrists mistress

slit my wrists,
they’re razor kissed,
I become once again,
your slit wrists mistress.
I cut deeper in my arm,
Just let me do this, for you,
I’ll end all my harm.
in my mind you appear,
You say, please darling.....feel no fear.
I say, I'm not with you,
I'll end this life,
You come behind me,
You take the knife.
With your one last breath,
You scream don't you dare,
You speak to me your last words,
You say....
never think I don't care.

your one last kiss

You threaten to die,
you say your goodbye.
I can't think straight,
all I can do is cry
You can't leave me like this,
you never gave me a kiss...
You say you love me,
You say, you want to be free.
To be free, and end your misery.
It'll end yours,
but add to mine.
I wouldn't be able to live,
I'd be so broken,
so sensitive.
We can't ever be apart..
It would rip up my heart.
Now you promise me this.
You won't leave me,
at least until,
I get your last kiss

Thursday, June 4, 2009

uumm

A doctor of psychology was doing his normal morning rounds when he entered a patient's room. He found Patient #1 sitting on the floor, pretending to saw a piece of wood in half.
Patient #2 was hanging from the ceiling, by his feet.
The doctor asked patient number 1 what he was doing. The patient replied, "Can't you see I'm sawing this piece of wood in half?" The doctor inquired of Patient #1 what Patient #2 was doing. Patient #1 replied, "Oh. He's my friend, but he's a little crazy. He thinks he's a lightbulb." The doctor looks up and notices Patient #2's face is going all red.
The doctor asks Patient #1, "If he's your friend, you should get him down from there before he hurts himself" Patient #1 replies, "What? And work in the dark?"

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

wednesday

on wednesdays
i have
volunteer work,
and church,
and in between
is chores.
my dad
is a
bastard.
he is
everywhere.
"no boyfriend,
no fone"
my mom
is a
bitch.
for going
to jail,
i get no freedom
whatsoever.
my brother
is younger,
and more annoying
than ever.
my boyfriend
probably
doesnt
know
what
too
do.

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

i am completely miserable

im fucking pissy
why is that?
because
of
my
boyfriend.
i think
we
shouldn't
break
up
he
doesn't
know
what
to
do.
i believe
that he
will make
a bad
choice.
he will
probably
lose
me.
and
i
will cry
forever.
no matter
if we're
together
or
apart,
i'll always
love
him
no matter
if he
feels
the
same
way.
if he does
or
if he doesn't
it
doesn't
matter
to
me.
i probably
cant
get
over
him
as fast
as i
would like to.
we've both
changed
this time.

Monday, June 1, 2009

dammit

my life sux.

my boyfriend is mad at me

his parents hate me

im still grounded


his parents are probably

going to

make us break up.


if he does i mite consider

killing myself.


i rather have death

than

having no one.


the only one i want

in my life

is him.


no one can replace him,

no one can erase him,

no one can do anything

except cry about him.


his parents

i hate

but him

i love to death.


i cant believe this is happening

it feels like a dream

but i can feel the pain,

my heart bursting

Friday, May 29, 2009

friday may 23

i cant believe what alora made me do. okay this is what happened:

we were walking to her nanas house when i wanted to stop at the high skewl and sit because my feet were hurting. so she went to go play with the door and she opened it like she does.
she said we should go in. i said no and she said so it or we wont be frineds. im not friends with goody 2 shoes. so i said no again. so she pushed me inside. i didnt want to though. so she dragged me inside. she told me to hold the clothes. i knew i shouldnt have but i did.
im never speaking to her again.
anyways, i had to spend my friday night in a room at the police department.
(=^_^=) ohh look a kitty, sorry >_<

dead

i want to be dead. is that too much to ask for? all i wanted for my birthday was to see my boyfriend and a week after to be dead. is that too much?
is there something wrong
with people
who want to be
dead?
my friends think so because they tell me to get out of the middle of the street when i walk.
i tell them on the fone that i am going to hang myself that nite.
they say that they wont get off the fone until i promise them i wont kill myself.
i never seem to do it tho.
i have once.
i took a knife to my legs.
i only cut once.
you could see the blood run down my legs.
i was fancisatedby the blood,
but i had to stop.
so i rinsed the knife off.
and i put it back where it belongs.
i was pissed.
i couldnt smoke
(mom was home)
i couldnt drink
(mom didnt have any)
couldnt kill myself
(my friends would kill me again)
so i decided to stay alive
until i really wanted to die.
that wouldnt be a long time tho.
poeple saw the cuts on my legs.
they called me emo.
i know
that they dont know
why i did it tho.
they will probably never know.
one day i hope
people will quit making fun
of people who are different.
we dont like it when they do.
im different-
i cut to kill
im bi
i may look emo
but the "regulars"-
blonde hair,
mini skirts,
straight
preppy.
is it alright to be different??
of course it is.
is it okay to be someone your not?
hell no!
you should be yourself.
is it okay to judge others?
maybe,
but i really dont know.
is it okay to label people what there not?
no.
it isnt okay to hurt people,
but thats why i wanted to kill myself.
people hurt my feelings.
i may be sensitive,
and i may have the guts to cry in skewl,
but i probably dont have the guts to stand up for myself.
it takes guts for me
to walk into skewl everyday knowing that
people know everything about me.
its a weird feeling..
we probably all have that weird feeling tho.
knowing something that you shouldnt know.
you feel guilty.
you feel ashamed.
thats how i feel